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(,^^) watashi no kakera yo chikara tsuyoku habataite yuke ··· kasanari au belly dance umare kita riyuu ··· ibara ni mamireta kono chi ga kare hatete mo anata he no kokoro o daite ··· flowers bloom in sunlight and i live close to you ··· qu'est ce qu'on fait? on va au lit? ··· i died then my instinct was born ··· i float in cosmos for the place to return ··· the color is singing ··· dream is still a dream that never changes ··· anyway the world is born again ··· yes everything is an imagination ··· why do you stare at the sky with your blurry eyes??! ··· tonight looking for the blood! ··· anata no tame ni ··· and she said ··· anemone ··· blurry eyes ··· brilliant years ··· butterfly's sleep ··· caress of venus ··· c'est la vie ··· cradle ··· coming closer ··· eien ··· fare well ··· finalé ··· floods of tears ··· flower ··· forbidden lover ··· get out from the shell ··· good morning hide ··· hole ··· honey ··· ibara no namida ··· kaze ni kienaide ··· kaze no yukue ··· kuchizuke ··· larva ··· love flies ··· lover boy ··· milky way ··· new world ··· pieces ··· shinjitsu to gensou to ··· shinshoku ··· taste of love ··· the 4th avenue cafe ··· trick ··· voice ··· yokan ··· winter fall (^^,)
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Moi dix Mois

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Dix infernal [2003.3.19]
NOCTURNAL OPERA [2004.7.20]
Beyond the Gate [2006.3.1]
DIXANADU [2007.3.28]
D+SECT [2010.12.15]


aNeMoNe
L'Arc~en~Ciel

hydetetsu
kenyukihiro

Ark [6th Album 1999.7.1]
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Clicked Singles Best 13 [2001.3.14]
Couple Singles [1991-2001]
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Dune 10th Anniversary Edition [2004.4.21]
Heart [5th Album 1998.2.25]
Heavenly [3rd Album 1995.9.1]
Kiss [11th Album 2007]
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Smile [9th Album 2004.3.31]
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AX WAIKU Journals
2011.11.11
RTGS [Real-Time Gross Settlement]

"RTGS stands for Real-Time Gross Settlement. RTGS system is the process of final settlement of the transaction (settlement) payments made per transaction (individually processed / gross settlement) and is real-time (electronically processed), in which the participant's account can be a debit / credit is many times a day in accordance with payment orders and payment receipts. "

Implementation of the RTGS system in Indonesia was started on November 17, 2000 with the name of Bank Indonesia System Real Time Gross Settlement (BI-RTGS).

There are at least 3 Reasons why the BI settlement using the RTGS, namely:

1. if you reopen the literature and results of empirical studies, there is an emerging awareness among central banks all over the world to manage the Large Value Transfer System (LVTS). BI-RTGS system can reduce systemic risk. What is meant by systemic risk is the risk of failure of one participant in fulfilling the obligation due. Failure to pay will make the other member banks also threatened. Even in extreme situations, the default could potentially trigger a broader financial difficulties which could threaten the stability of payment systems.


2. through the RTGS system can reduce the incidence of float that is expected to bolster the effectiveness of banking supervision. On the other hand with good management of liquidity in the banking sector will also help the effectiveness of monetary policy.


3. RTGS system opportunity for integration with a variety of applications payment system. Call it like money market and capital market under the Delivery versus Payment (DVP) or can also make transactions, cross border payments through the Payment versus Payment (PVP).

As is known, before the settlement through the RTGS system was introduced to the public, there is another settlement that is commonly used through the clearing system. Then the difference RTGS clearing it with what?

Unlike the BI-RTGS system that uses gross settlement method in which each transaction is calculated individually, then use the method of clearing net settlement in the framework of final settlement. Net settlement is the process of final settlement of payment transactions are done at the end of a period in between kewajibankewajiban offsetting payments to the rights of acceptance so that there is only one net claim or liability to be disettle for each bank account.

In the clearing system by the end of the day there is a risk that a bank will experience defeat in a clearing large enough quantities as before the implementation of the BI-RTGS system throughout the inter-bank transactions both retail and large value transactions executed through the clearing transactions. If this amount exceeds the balance of defeat clearing account at Bank Indonesia, the bank balances at Bank Indonesia will become negative (overdraft) which in turn would complicate the Bank Indonesia if the bank is not able to cover an overdraft the next day.

Targets to be achieved through the application of the BI-RTGS system, among others, with the BI-RTGS transfer of funds between participants more quickly, efficiently, reliably and securely. In addition there are at least more immediate settlement certainty. The RTGS system will show the participant's account information in real time and thorough. RTGS members are also required to be disciplined and professional in managing their liquidity. And expected the RTGS system, this will reduce settlement risks.


thanks to:
- all literatures from web
- waiku agung

Posted at 04:21 pm by Waiku Agung
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2011.03.31
D+SECT [moi dix mois 5th album]

after 3 months, at last the fifth album MOI DIX MOIS was get in my hand at 2011.3.21. when i heard all in these track, it sound like a J-GOTHIC-METAL. but after listening by 3 times, i think all songs are really GREAT.
all songs is written by mana, even all musics and also lyrics.
just one word for mana, AWESOME!!!!


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D+SECT
In paradisum
The Seventh Veil
Witchcraft
The SECT
Divine Place
Pendulum
The Pact of Silence
Ange ~D side holy wings~
Agnus Dei
Sanctum Regnum
Dead Scape
Dies Irae
Baptisma



The Seventh Veil
lyrics: Mana / music: Mana

False gods, so break away, nanatsu no me ga sora kirisaki
In silence, dyed in blood, dai-nana no tenshi ga hohoemu
Destruction brought by heretics chi no soko kara ima mezamete
The veil, secret, truth,
gareki no naka de mogaki-nagara zetsubou no fuchi de saigo no VEERU o
ima moesakaru tamashii yami no naka de sekai no subete o terasu
yami ga shihai suru sennen toki no kanata kuroki kishi wa juubousei o matoi
togireta ito o sagashi-motome zetsubou no fuchi de saigo no VEERU o
tatakai no toki so break away shinden wa umi e to shizumi-yuki
horobi-yuku dyed in blood jaaku na shirushi o kizamikomu
Destruction brought by flame chi no soko kara ima mezamete
The veil, secret, truth,
moesakaru tamashii yami no naka de sekai no subete o terasu
yami ga shihai suru sennen toki no kanata kuroki kishi wa juubousei o matoi
kono yo no yamiji no meikyuu o samayoibito yameru kokoro ni hana o sakase
sonzai riyuu wa koko ni aru kokoro no naka ni
arawareta shin no kyuuseishu Your mind
The veil, seventh wall



Witchcraft
lyrics: Mana / music: Mana

Le Sorcières fiancées de Satan
koushudai no moto ni ugomeku Mandrake
gankou wa kyouki no mabataki Basilisk
Fernery, wear it, Witchcraft
genkaku no naka de sasayaku Incubus
genwaku no naka de zawameku Succubus
Le Sorcières fiancées de Satan
kouyu ni mamireta karada wa aojiroi honoo ni terasare
mashou no hitomi ni wa amai wana biyaku to midara ni
jouyoku no majin ozomashiki Asmodeus
shikiyoku ni mamirete chinurareta Grandier
Fernery, wear it, Witchcraft
jakou no kaori ni tsutsumare aojiroi honoo ni toketeku
mashou no hitomi ni wa amai wana biyaku to midara ni
moetsukita ato no
haritsuke ni sareta mujitsu no tsumi hate-naku yureru yurikago
ikyou no bourei wa imawashiki shi no kyoufu wa kokoro o okasu
rakuen yo kaguwashiki chi de mitashi
ubawareta sourei na saigo no yoru ni
Silent Witness



The SECT
lyrics: Mana / music: Mana

ima takaraka ni narihibiku kawaranu sekai o tsugeru
meikai no kane no oto wa warera o koyoi fukaki fuchi kara sou mezameru
It is a symbol and a code
kokoro no fukaki fuchi ni juuji o kizami In sect D side
kore kara hajimaru gishiki o In sect D side
My prayer becomes bloodshed and the world erodes
ima tobitatsu kuroi hane o hiroge hokoritakaku mae yo
sonzai suru karada ni shiru-sareta dai-san no tobira no naka e
anata o mezame-saseteku mabayui hikari wa kanata e mai-chiru hane no shizuku kagayakeri tokoshinae
koyoi hikisakareta toki o torimodosu
towa ni kawaranu sekai wa ima koko ni
kokoro no fukaki fuchi ni juuji o kizami In sect D side
kore kara hajimaru gishiki o In sect D side
My prayer becomes bloodshed and the world erodes
ima tobitatsu kuroi hane o hiroge hokoritakaku mae yo
sonzai suru karada ni shiru-sareta dai-san no tobira no naka e
anata o mezame-saseteku mabayui hikari wa kanata e hane no shizuku kagayakeri tokoshinae
itsukushimi fukaki shugoshin-tachi yo kawaranu ai mote michibikita mou
I believe to the world's end. The heart's grief, purified. Clad in the glorious night.
Fly away
You feel to the world's end. The heart's grief, purified. Clad in the glorious night.



Divine Place
lyrics: Mana / music: Mana

aoku kirameku BIROODO no oku hisoyaka na basho miwaku no hanazono
tsuki no mahou wa ai to yume o ayashiki meikyuu no naka e izanau
Secret code wa futari no Silence kioku no naka ni
Secret maze o kake-nuke Silence mugen no naka o
Just one Divine Place
kagayaku toki no naka de me o tojireba amai toiki kuruoshii ai no tawamure
kagayaku yume no naka de kasanari-au hikari to kage utsukushiki ai no shirabe ni
tsuki wa kake-yuku mujou ni koku wa ima kono basho ga kie-satte mo
Secret code wa futari no Silence kioku no naka ni
Secret maze o kake-nuke Silence mugen no naka o
kagayaku toki no naka de me o tojireba amai toiki kuruoshii ai no tawamure
kagayaku yume no naka de kasanari-au hikari to kage utsukushiki ai no shirabe ni
kagayaku toki no naka de me o tojireba amai toiki kuruoshii ai no tawamure
ai no shirabe ni
kagayaku toki no naka de
I pray this beautiful place is a secret, may it last endless, eternally.



Pendulum
lyrics: Mana / music: Mana

mayonaka no kaze itetsuku iki
chika e to sasou ORUGAN no ne
narihibiku
Sensual night
hanten shita ankoku gekijou mou modorenai tobira o ake
mugon no kuchizuke de
hitomi no oku ni kokuin o ima anata no ryouiki no naka ni
munamoto ni yureru hikari no uzu kuroi DORESU hirugaeshite
kono mama toki o tomete akai tsuki to yoru ni tokete-yukeba
yami ni suwareru karada wa ima mou modorenai tobira o ake
tsuyayaka ni
This pendulum shows you
furimidashite
Your feel kannou no yoru ni
munamoto ni yureru hikari no uzu kuroi DORESU hirugaeshite
kono mama toki o tomete akai tsuki to yoru ni tokete-yuku
anata to nemuranu yoru ni yurete yureru hokoritakaki akashi
A sleepless night



Ange ~ D side holy wings ~
lyrics: Mana / music: Mana

tenshi no hane wa ima hajimete no kotoba o
ima subete o kuruwase midara ni
nanimokamo sute-sari ochite-yuke dokomademo
Go mad, go to hell sen no koe
Deep red in the rain mai-kurue koyoi azayaka ni
taiyou wa sari-yuki yamiyo ni
shikkoku no bi to tomo ni irodore yo dokomademo
Go mad, go to hell sen no toge
Deep red in the rain tsukisashita sora ni kiete-yuku
tenshi no hane wa iroase hajimete no kotoba o
mezame wa furisosogu sou hane no kioku no ne
zetsubou wa kie-use koukotsu ni
shikkoku no bi to tomo ni irodore yo dokomademo
Go mad, go to hell sen no koe
Deep red in the rain narihibiku sora ni kiete-yuku
tenshi no hane wa iroase hajimete no kotoba o
mezame wa furisosogu sou hane no kioku no
tenshi no hane wa ima kageru toki no kanata e
tenshi no hane wa ima hajimete no kotoba o
mezame wa furisosogu
sou hane no kioku no ne



Agnus Dei
lyrics: Mana / music: Mana

aa tsumetai musuu no toge ni toraware
miugoki hitotsu deki wa shinai
ima mabayui shinku no bara wa hohoemu
sukitooru yubi ni karamasete
anata to sou kono mama hitomi ni utsuru
omoi wa kagayaite watashi o tsutsumu
I wish ... so once again
anata no yume ga mirai e to tsuzuku michi o terashite
aa kie-yuku musuu no toge wa karada o
kiri-kizami akaku somete-yuku
ima mabayui shinku no bara wa hohoemi
nagareru namida ni kuchizuke o
kono mama kasanari-hibiku
kodou wa itoshikute anata o tsutsumu
I wish ... so once again
anata to sou kono mama toki o tomete
aoi bara to amai kaori ni tsutsumarete
I wish ... so once again



Sanctum Regnum
lyrics: Mana / music: Mana

Sanctum Regnum
d · i · x dix
Give me the code, shout it out loud
The heart, taken from the beautiful sacrifice,
is placed on the altar
The heavens will split in two
When the pale light shines on the ground
Father
The great king of Angolmois awakes
siom xid iom



Dead Scape
lyrics: Mana / music: Mana

I saw the world end last night in my agony
The end
I know the world ended last night in my sadness.
The end
My sight
I am killing, I am killing, you're killing satisfied
The death scape, beautiful ones encountered at the edge of my death
In side
my brain
In a hole
aa utsukushiki hana sakimidareteiru kono yo no hate ni
ima ushinatta hibi torimodosu tame ni kono yo no hate de anata to



Dies Irae
lyrics: Mana / music: Mana

ima taiyou wa hikisakare zange no yoru ni daichi wa kuzure-ochi
toki no owari o
subete wa yakitsukusare shi no sabaki o
dantoudai e izanau kaze hisou no shirabe to
saidan ni wa ochita seizou shikusei-sareta
yume to maboroshi ushinawareta ai nara
egareta yoru no hana wa amaneku honoo ni nomarete
hai ni mamireta daraku-shita karada ni
tomurai no kane wa yotsuyu to imawa no fuchi ni kiesari-yuku
tsuki no shizuku ni dakare shinban no yoru ni daichi wa kuzure-ochite
saidan ni wa moeru seizou shikusei-sareta
yume to maboroshi kibou to yobu ai nara
egareta yoru no hana wa amaneku honoo ni nomarete
hai ni mamireta daraku-shita sekai ni
tomurai no kane wa yotsuyu to imawa no fuchi ni kiesari-yuku
ochiteku sora kuroi namida de somatte
ima yamiyo ni kuzure-ochiru ai
tomurai no kane wa yotsuyu to imawa no fuchi ni kiesari-yuku


thanks to:
- moi dix mois
- midi:nette
- waiku agung

Posted at 11:59 pm by Waiku Agung
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2011.02.20
Playing Super Nintendo, Sega Genesis, NES, Gameboy, Gameboy Advance, PSX on your FREMANTLE

in the next session, i will give you all everything news that remind you about several years ago. maybe you are the one in meaning still remember playing metal gear solid on playstation, super mario world on super nintendo, or playing sonic series on sega genesis.
now you can play all these games by emulator installed on your device. just click in here and install it, this application will be suitable for maemo-fremantle. for the games [i called it with "rom"], you can download on emuasylum.com, romhustler.net, romnaton.net and etc. but i tell you something, this is a illegal meaning if you download the rom without you've the games [cartridge or cd]. but it still not a big problem than u get being corruptor in your country.
hahahaha........
btw, just fun for it!


note: *for psx4all psx emulator, render is still slowly. it's a under extra-development repository. but i really make sure to you that the emulator is working. once again, it's really-really slowly.



special thanks to:
-nokia n900
-maemo.org
-all web for roms
-waiku agung

Posted at 08:31 am by Waiku Agung
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2011.02.07
How to using Dual Shock 3 on N900

basic requirements:
- pc with OS ubuntu-linux 10.04 lts
- N900 "a new hope"
- dual shock 3 [DS3] or sixaxis controller
- usb cable
- sixaxis-support
- sixad
- rootsh
- sixpair

steps to pairing:

firstly you have to install rootsh, sixaxis-support, and sixad on your "a new hope" (via application manager, search to find it). after that turn on your PC. If you have OS Windows, please install ubuntu-linux on your pc. because when you want to pairing it, you need this OS [you can download ubuntu-linux in here]. check your n900 bluetooth address, you can check it on setting and find at about product [just remember we need bluetooth address, and not MAC address]. then download " sixpair " by click it. Save it in your flashdisk or memory card. Put sixpair on home folder or desktop. Connect ds 3 / sixaxis controller to PC with usb cable, it signed by the red-led will be flashing and blinking. Its a normal condition. Open the "terminal" on your ubuntu-linux. You can check it where it standby. If for others, the root will be on desktop, but in my PC the root will be on home folder. Put the "sixpair" there. Now position in "terminal"


sudo ./sixpair XX:XX:XX:XX:XX:XX

notify that XX:XX:XX:XX:XX:XX is your bluetooth address then enter. Next turn on N900 bluetooth and press PS3 button on your DS3. The red-led will flash and then if its successful the red-led will be flash from left to right and back again.

mission completed!!!








special thanks to:
- devildriven
- tomasz sterna
- maemo.org
- n900 a new hope
- dual shock 3 / sixaxis controller
- ubuntu-linux 10.04 LTS the Lucid Lynx
- waiku agung

Posted at 10:32 pm by Waiku Agung
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2010.12.12
When the down goes to high....

Dikala sang surya akan bersinar..
Disaat itu pula bulan berhenti bercahaya..
Betapa wkt cpt berlalu dan hilang entah kmn..
Hilang seakan tak pernah kmbli..
Tiada kado yg lbh berharga dihari ulang tahunmu..
Selain kata "Happy B'day KK" Ga trasa umur km skrg dah "29"..
Dengan bertmbah satu tahun usiamu,tiada asa yg bisa kurangkai selain harapan "kedewasaan untuk mengantarkanmu menuju kesuksesan.."
Tiada doa yang bs kupanjatkan Selain doa
"semoga pjng umur & Allah akan slalu ada didekatmu"
Kan slalu menjaga & melindungimu..
Dd berharap km tmbh dewasa dlm menghadapi sesuatu dan dlm bersikap, tmbh syg dan slalu cinta ma dd..
Untukmu cintaku..
Dd syg km..Luv U...

Jikalau yg lalu ku telah khilaf menciptakan dosa dan menyakitimu, saat ini hati berbicara meminta ketulusan maaf atas segala kesalahan dan dosa yg telah kulakukan baik itu yg disengaja atau tidak..
dan disaat yg fitri dd mengucapkan minal aidin wal faidzin slmt hari raya idul fitri 1 syawal 1430H..
Maafin dd ya kk klo dd ad buat kslhn ma km..
Met lebaran ya syg..
Luv U too so much..

Ga trasa udh 3thn qta sma2..
Suka duka,susah sneng, qta jlnin sma2..
Mksh ya syg udh nemenin dan slalu ad bt dd slma ini.. Ju2r dd sneng bs jd bagian dr hidup km..
Dd berharap hubngn qta akan trus tumbuh dihati qta slmany..
Dd cm mnta, sygin dan cintai dd dgn spenuh hati mu ya kk..
"Bila ada berjuta rasa Yg qta tak tw dtgnya dr mana Kata org itulah cinta Saat qta rindu dan sulit memejamkan mata Saat tak ada kata lain kecuali ingin bertemu dgnny
Mngknkah itu cinta?
Satu rasa yg begt sulit terlukis lwt kata2 dan hanya mampu dirasa Sprti yg kini tengah aq rasakan pdmu
Saat anganku tertuju pd 1 so2kmu Ya..aq mmng cinta km." Dd syg bgt ma km..
Luv U so much honey..

Posted at 07:01 pm by Waiku Agung
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2010.09.10
selamat idul fitri 1431H

Setinggi langit.. Seluas hamparan laut.. Sepnjang prmukaan dunia.. Sebnyak debu yg bterbangan.. Sebnyak itulah salah dan khilafku.. Kk..met lebaran ya.. Mohon maaf lahir dan bathin.. Maafin dd klo ada slh ma km.. Smoga kedepanny qta menjadi org yg lbh baik lg.. Smoga Allah mberikan fitri dan mjadikan fitrah kpd qta..Amin.. Taqabalallah huminna wa minkum. Minal aidin wal faidzin. Dd syg km..Luv u.. Sms ini berasal dari dd.. makasih ya syg...........

Posted at 10:59 pm by Waiku Agung
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2010.07.04
mengenang masa lalu...

Mencari honda grand tahun 1995 s/d 1998. Kalo ada yang mau jual bisa sms or call di 02199151116. Budget 2,5jt s/d 2,8jt. Thanks...!

Posted at 05:02 pm by Waiku Agung
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2010.04.19
Makin jadi bangkai saja...

Oh... Mw mpe kapan ya? What the FUCKING SHIT ASSHOLE BITCH!! who ever u are! Why she doesnt underSTOOD? fuck!

Posted at 10:27 pm by Waiku Agung
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2009.07.12
VINCENT and ELLEN

Lima tahun usia pernikahanku dengan Ellen sungguh masa yang sulit.

Semakin hari semakin tidak ada kecocokan diantara kami.

Kami bertengkar karena hal-hal kecil. Karena Ellen lambat membukakan pagar saat aku pulang

kantor.
Karena meja sudut di ruang keluarga yang ia beli tanpa membicarakannya denganku, bagiku itu

hanya membuang uang saja.

Hari ini, 27 Agustus adalah ulang tahun Ellen.
Kami bertengkar pagi ini karena Ellen kesiangan membangunkanku. Aku  dan tak mengucapkan

selamat ulang tahun padanya, kecupan di keningnya yang biasa kulakukan di hari ulang

tahunnya tak mau kulakukan.

Malam sekitar pukul 7, Ellen sudah 3 kali menghubungiku untuk memintaku segera pulang dan

makan malam bersamanya, tentu saja permintaannya tidak kuhiraukan.

Jam menunjukkan pukul 10 malam, aku merapikan meja kerjaku dan beranjak pulang. Hujan turun

sangat deras, sudah larut malam tapi jalan di tengah kota Jakarta masih saja macet, aku

benar-benar dibuat kesal oleh keadaan.

Membayangkan pulang dan bertemu dengan Ellen membuatku semakin kesal! Akhirnya aku sampai

juga di rumah pukul 12 malam, dua jam perjalanan kutempuh yang biasanya aku hanya

membutuhkan waktu 1 jam untuk sampai di rumah.

Kulihat Ellen tertidur di sofa ruang keluarga. Sempat aku berhenti di hadapannya dan

memandang wajahnya. "Ia sungguh cantik" kataku dalam hati, "Wanita yang
menjalin hubungan dengankuselama 7 tahun sejak duduk di bangku SMA yang kini telah kunikahi

selama 5 tahun, tetap saja cantik". Aku menghela nafas dan meninggalkannya pergi, aku ingat

kalau aku sedang kesal sekali dengannya.

Aku langsung masuk ke kamar. Di meja rias istriku kulihat buku itu, buku coklat tebal yang

dimiliki oleh istriku. Bertahun-tahun Ellen menulis cerita hidupnya pada buku
coklat itu. Sejak sebelum menikah, tak pernah ia ijinkan aku membukanya. Inilah saatnya! Aku

tak mempedulikan Ellen, kuraih buku coklat itu dan kubuka halaman demi halaman secara acak.

14 Februari 1996.

Terima kasih Tuhan atas pemberianMu yang berarti bagiku, Vincent, pacar pertamaku yang akan

menjadi pacar terakhirku.

Hmm. aku tersenyum, Ellen yakin sekali kalau aku yang akan menjadi suaminya.

6 September 2001,

Tak sengaja kulihat Vincent makan malam dengan wanita lain sambil tertawa mesra. Tuhan, aku

mohon agar Vincent tidak pindah ke lain hati.

Jantungku serasa mau berhenti...

23 Oktober 2001,

Aku menemukan surat ucapan terima kasih untuk Vincent, atas candle light dinner di hari

ulang tahun seorang wanita dengan nama Melly. Siapakah dia Tuhan?
Bukakanlah mataku untuk apa yang Kau kehendaki agar aku ketahui.

Jantungku benar-benar mau berhenti. Melly, wanita yang sempat dekat denganku disaat usia

hubunganku dengan Ellen telah mencapai 5 tahun. Melly, yang karenanya aku hampir saja mau

memutuskan hubunganku dengan Ellen karena kejenuhanku. Aku telah memutuskan untuk tidak

bertemu dengan Melly lagi setelah  dekat dengannya selama 4 bulan, dan memutuskan untuk

tetap setia kepada Ellen. Aku sungguh tak menduga kalau Ellen mengetahui hubunganku dengan

Melly.


4 Januari 2002,

Aku dihampiri wanita bernama Melly, Ia menghinaku dan mengatakan Vincent telah selingkuh

dengannya. Tuhan, beri aku kekuatan yang berasal daripadaMu.

Bagaimana mungkin Ellen sekuat itu, ia tak pernah mengatakan apapun atau menangis di

hadapanku setelah mengetahui aku telah menghianatinya. Aku tahu Melly, dia
pasti telah membuat hati Ellen sangat terluka dengan kata-kata tajam yang keluar dari

mulutnya.

Nafasku sesak, tak mampu kubayangkan apa yang Ellen rasakan saat itu.


14 Februari 2002,

Vincent melamarku di hari jadi kami yang ke-6. Tuhan apa yang harus kulakukan? Berikan aku

tanda untuk keputusan yang harus kuambil.

 

14 Februari 2003,

Hari minggu yang luar biasa, aku telah menjadi Nyonya Alexander Vincent Winoto. Terima kasih

Tuhan!


18 Juli 2005,

Pertengkaran pertama kami sebagai keluarga. Aku harap aku tak kemanisan lagi membuatkan teh

untuknya. Tuhan, bantu aku agar lebih berhati-hati membuatkan teh untuk suamiku.


7 April 2006,

Vincent marah padaku, aku tertidur pulas saat ia pulang kantor sehingga ia menunggu di depan

rumah agak lama.

Seharian aku berada mall mencari jam idaman Vincent, aku ingin membelikan jam itu di hari

ulang tahunnya yang tinggal 2 hari lagi. Tuhan, beri kedamaian di hati Vincent agar ia tidak

marah lagi padaku, aku tak akan tidur di sore hari lagi kalau Vincent belum pulang walaupun

aku lelah.

Aku mulai menangis, Ellen mencoba membahagiakanku tapi aku malah memarahinya tanpa mau

mendengarkan penjelasannya. Jam itu adalah jam kesayanganku yang kupakai sampai hari ini,

tak kusadari ia membelikannya dengan susah payah.


15 November 2007,

Vincent butuh meja untuk menaruh kopi di ruang keluarga, dia sangat suka membaca di sudut

ruang itu. Tuhan, bantu aku menabung agar aku dapat membelikan sebuah
meja, hadiah Natal  untuk Vincent.


Aku tak dapat lagi menahan tangisanku, Ellen tak pernah mengatakan meja itu adalah hadiah

Natal untukku. Ya, ia memang membelinya di malam Natal dan  menaruhnya hari itu juga di

ruang keluarga.

Aku sudah tak sanggup lagi membuka halaman berikutnya. Ellen sungguh diberi kekuatan dari

Tuhan untuk mencintaiku tanpa syarat.

Aku berlari keluar kamar, kukecup kening Ellen dan ia terbangun.

"Maafkan aku Ellen, Aku mencintaimu, Selamat ulang tahun." (ts)


Jika manusia bisa mencintai pasangannya tanpa syarat. Bayangkan, bagaimana besarnya cinta

Tuhan kepada kita yang adalah ciptaanNya…

Posted at 08:03 am by Waiku Agung
lie in me inches deep...  

Michael Jackson - One Day In Your Life

One day in your life
You'll remember a place
Someone touching your face
You'll come back and you'll look around, you'll . . .

One day in your life
You'll remember the love you found here
You'll remember me somehow
Though you dont need me now
I will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
You'll remember one day . . .

One day in your life
When you find that youre always waiting
For a love we used to share
Just call my name, and I'll be there

You'll remember me somehow
Though you dont need me now
I will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
You'll remember one day . . .

One day in your life
When you find that youre always lonely
For a love we used to share
Just call my name, and I'll be there...

Posted at 07:59 am by Waiku Agung
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-03- e'ge umi ni sasagu
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-05- miwaku no rooma
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-01- yami no kanata e
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-05- itsuwari no musette
-06- n.p.s n.g.s
-07- claire
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-10- zenchou
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-05- brise
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-02- seinaru toki eien no inori
-03- kyomu no nakade no yuugi
-04- kagami no butou genwaku no yoru
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-06- chinurareta kajitsu
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101 - PIECES KAKERA TRANSLATE [2007.1.16] 102 - Kiss her... [2007.1.30] 103 - houkai jokyoku COLLAPSE OVERTURE [2007.2.25] 104 - Sing for Absolution [2007.3.31] 105 - MISSING ARCHIVE 106 - MISSING ARCHIVE 107 - MUSE starlight [2007.5.6] 108 - Against All Odds [2007.6.2] 109 - hahahaha... [2007.7.15] 110 - KING OF FIGHTERS [2007.8.1]